I just wrote this email to Amanda Daflos...

I finally had a second to catch up and send you at least a frigging email...I've been looking for work constantly....Which SUCKS.....And it makes me wonder why we all went to school and tried to do things that looked good on our resume...I'm starting to think that if I didn't spend all of HS and a few years prior worrying about what people would think of me I would be a plumber right now making overtime...I have that feeling where I feel like it would make the most sense to learn a valuable trade instead of working in a luxury industry like Marketing....I have friends in many fields that have been laid off over the past few months and some who have "dodged a bullet." It seems to me like things have crumbled and it's time to think about what we actually want to do....And if that means just working jobs to make money and travelling than why not. If that means moving home....Just kidding....But my point is that nothing around us matters...As long as we know who we are and are sure of that than who gives a shit if we work for the MTA or not...I feel like I have wasted way to much time doing what I'm supposed to do....And some of it was right for me and I'm glad for it....I just can't keep thinking about the things I wish I COULD do....I currently have two friends with me that are from Ireland and Israel...They have both been travelling around South America for the better part of this year...They are pulsating with experiences and connections and in their eyes you can see the kind of satisfaction that only someone who is living in the moment can have...I feel that myself...But this past year was much more rocky than I have had in some time...It is that which has brought me to this tangent...What really matters is being around those we love and enjoying the ideals of life....I can actually say that I feel happier knowing that someone worthy is in charge of our country. That has changed me in a good way and makes me understand the meaning of hope and change...It is that concept that I want to bring into my own life...Freeing ourselves of doubt. Overcoming the fear of true personal success....

Love,
Amy
Miss you.